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Why I Love (and Hate) Being an Indigo Child

Why I Love (and Hate) Being an Indigo Child

If you had asked me when I was literally a child if I thought I was an Indigo Child, I would have said no. Even if you asked me if I thought I was special or different, I would have said no.

Back then, I was trying VERY hard to be normal and the last thing I needed was people going around saying otherwise. And I wouldn’t have told you anything about my “imaginary” friends or lucid flying dreams or sadness over knowing that our planet might someday explode back into a bunch of gasses (my mom actually caught me crying in my closet one day over this possibility).

Those were things I learned to keep to myself.

It sucked hiding so much of myself while I was growing up. But it also allowed me the room to become myself without a limiting label full of expectations and preconceived ideas permanently attached to my identity. I was safe in my silent thoughts.

But not totally safe. I figured out quickly that people didn’t appreciate my intuition. They wanted reason and logic and science, not gut feelings or universal wisdom. So I pushed it aside and tried it their way… which worked great for everybody but me.

Trying to fit in and not listening to my intuition made me an easy target in the world. I worked for people who had no intention of paying me, I made friends with girls who spread rumors about me to make themselves look good, I even married a guy who was abusive physically, emotionally and financially. It was exhausting living like that. It sucked.

So I quit. I went looking for something else… for myself.

I remembered feeling safe as little girl and having this inner sense of knowing. I didn’t have a word for my intuition, so I started Googling stuff until I found it. I was deep in an internet rabbit hole of Google searches when I came across some information about Indigo Children and everything clicked.

I’m still on that mystic journey of figuring it all out. I get a little less basic every year. I’m learning to enjoy the stuff that comes with being an Indigo Child like being empathic, energetically intense, really good at meditating and able to interact in multiple dimensions at once (I’ll show you later, it’s actually easy, fun and very useful).

But the thing I love most about being an Indigo Child is working on my life purpose.

That’s where you come in. My life purpose is actually more about you than me. I’m here to help you figure out who you are and get yourself straight so you can work on your own life purpose. I’m here to inspire and motivate you, to lead the way and to connect you with other Indigo Children.

It’s not easy. Indigo Children are uncooperative, aggressive and intense. But we’re also brilliant, visionary and totally magical.

I’ve always been comfortable writing and even got a degree in journalism once, so I figured a blog was a great way to handle this life purpose mission of mine. I thought I could write articles and you would read them and there could be ads on the side that would pay all my bills. You would get to know everything I knew for free while I hid in my house typing away in sterile introverted bliss.

I was a dumb dumb.

Everybody liked the stuff I wrote! But the ad money was a joke and I got overwhelmed with people asking for help. The articles were nice, but they weren’t enough. Some people acted like I was a big corporation (I’m just a girl) and had all kinds of unfair expectations of my little blog. Some people felt I owed them, some wanted my full attention, some were grateful, some wanted to support me…

Everybody had advice about how I could do better. I went to that place again of trying to be what others wanted.

It failed again…
I quit again…
I Googled again…

I figured it out again 🙂

I quit writing blogs and went all in becoming a better entrepreneur and learning how to use the internet to help you in a way that works for both of us.

Here’s what’s coming…

1. A Better Test
(Update: The new test is here! Are You an Indigo Child?)
I originally created the Are You An Indigo Child? test with an open ended, ambiguous collection of answers that would allow you to decide for yourself. At first folks thought that was cool. Most of them probably knew me and had gotten more than just that weird little non-answer. I’ve gotten lots of emails from people pissed who want a real answer with an explanation and a little direction. I hear you. It’s happening.

2. The Indigo Children Society
(Update: Click here to learn more about the Indigo Children Society)
Years ago I accidentally created a private Facebook group for Indigo Children and it turned out to be an amazing source of support and growth for a bunch of us. But people showed up who were offended by everything and the epic conversations were replaced with a bunch of lame photos with spiritual quotes. There’s a lot of Indigo Children in the world and most of us are alone in our experience. I learned a lot in that first group about what worked, what didn’t, what we needed, what we wanted. I’ve spent a ton of time putting together not just a new group, but also a Ritual Initiation that will help you show up ready go. I’m really excited about this one.

3. Transformation (instead of information)
(Update: The first transformational product is here! The Indigo Children’s Underground Handbook for Sensitive Souls & Mystical Beings)
We live in a world so full of information it takes forever to consume and even longer to figure out how to apply it to your life. Part of becoming a better entrepreneur was doing a lot of listening to understand what it is that you really want and need. I’m in the process of packaging up the results you want so I can literally sell them to you. Yeah, money, that’s different too. The lame ads on my website are going away and I’m going to give you the opportunity to invest in yourself. I’m going to quit underestimating you and put you in a position to value and receive your transformation. It’s okay if that makes you uncomfortable right now, the blog will still be here and I’ve got some great articles coming up. I was uncomfortable too for a long time but now I’m ready to make serious money magic with you.

4. Access to Me
In my ideal world, I would live a mystical hermetic lifestyle in total seclusion reading books, meditating and gardening all day. You have made it clear that’s not my destiny. Let’s be real… I am an introvert. I need my me time. I’m creating ways that you can have access to me that will work for both of us. I would actually love to chat and hang with you! I want to know what you’re up to! So I’m determined to find a way to make it work. There will be a live online masterclass where you can ask me questions on specific topics (all the woo woo magical stuff), I’m going to start doing public speaking again and host retreats so we can meet up in person, there will be new one on one video calls with me where we will focus totally on you and what you need, and I’m going to be hanging out inside The Indigo Children Society having epic conversations with tons of Indigo Children like you.

I think getting you set up with some direction and mutual support with other Indigo Children is the best place to start, so the next thing I’m launching is the Indigo Children Society. I’d really love to see you in there and get some quality hang time.

Click to learn more about the Indigo Children Society
and get the invite to join when it launches.